For the past couple of years I’ve had developed this weird habit of collecting receipts. It is not that I had planned it, it just happened like this. You know how you find a pile of receipts gathered in your wallet or purse? Well, I just happened to reposition those into a drawer of mine until it became a habit.

I always knew subconsciously that I would do some kind of art project with it I just didn’t know what.

In our “Globalization and Global culture” class we took a novel called “The Committee” by an Egyptian writer called Sun’Allah Ibrahim. We immediately fell in love with the story. It is so powerful in an agonizing way. His kafkaesque style is very grabbling and mind blowing.

With no spoilers here: the story speaks about a globalized arab world in which it is controlled by a force to consume. The story specifically strikes you by it very closing line:

Then I lifted my wounded arm to my mouth and began to consume myself

In class we have argued the translation of the world “Akalt” into consume. Where the translation we’ve read says “consume” another translation says “eat”. My doctor said that “eat” makes more sense but I have arguably made my statement that “consume” is more powerful and meaningful. When one consume it ticks every sense of disposing, and usually it ends with waste of the act consume. But that is only my opinion you can always beg to differ with your opinion.

With that amazing class we came, my friends and I, to discuss my collection of receipts and what kind of art project should I do with them. They suggested that I should connect it to “The Committee”. I loved the idea that I wanted to apply it to the closing line of the book.

Since then I left the idea on the shelf. Until one day I listened to Bastille’s “Pompeii” song and I thought it had so much relevance to the idea. Especially with the verses:

And the walls kept tumbling down
In the city that we love

With that I got enthusiastic and decided to do it right away.

With that I might as well say: Enjoy the video!

-Esperanza Writes

P.S: Excuse my pajamas :p :’D

I Hunger Game You

Have you read the Hunger Games? Have you seen it? Well let us just set things straight okay? I just finished the book yesterday and Hunger games is amazing!!! Especially if you are a teenager and into a lovey-dovey atmosphere. However, the message it contains really really hits politics to the core. It mostly argues the issue of  Darwin’s theory “Survival for the fittest” .. which makes me sigh because I hate this and it makes the future a bit scary to me.

“The Hunger Games” reminds me so much of “The Shadow Children” books by Margret Peterson Haddix, my favorite books then and still. It also addresses the issue of future politics, where third children are illegal to existence and if a parent should have a third child that child is to be killed. Imagine! However, those children are still born but live in the shadows where  they have no identity and there existence is dangerous to themselves. So they stay in the shadows and do not get out until they find a legal identity of another dead person and takes over it but still s/he are in danger. Anyway the sixth book has a good ending that will satisfy you. They are six books in all I’ve read them all except the first one “Among the Hidden” (it is not necessary to read the first one because you eventually see a telling of the same story through the other books). They are really amazing and like I said it is no different than the Hunger Games. Except it does not contain romance as the Hunger Game does. I do not see why it did not became famous as the Hunger Games.It is for preteens-teens but it is really a good read. Any book for Margret Haddix is a good read, she is interested in future issues/ science fiction. My favorite author so far.

Anyway, back to the Hunger Games after I finished it I thought to myself “I’ve decided it is totally appropriate to say ‘I hunger Game you'” and here is what it means. When you say ‘I Hunger Game you’ it means I love you, I care about you, I think about you everyday and I will fight for you till death and that is how I show my love to you. You are so precious to me and if it means going against authority so be it. I cannot live without you. I totally Hunger Game you. So a new phrase has been born.

I Hunger Game You!!

-Esperanza Writes

The Cons of English Literature Students being Bookworms

Being an English Literature student has been one of the few right choices I made in my life el7mdellah. There is nothing I’m more proud of in my life. Yet with everything in life there is a pros and cons, well here the cons come because I am a sort of a heavy reader (I slack off from time to time) and a known bookworm among my peers. I won’t mention the pros, that would be a never-ending post, trust me. However there is one little con that I’ve come in terms of realizing yet just recently.

You know how most readers have three status of reading in their life: read, currently reading, to-read (just like goodreads) those shelves are the most important shelve in a reader’s life, they don’t exist most of the time but they are there. It drops in a conversation like “I read the Harry Potter series” (I didn’t read HP books btw) that is in the read shelve, “I’m reading one of the greatest books it’s called “The Lucky One”‘ that is in the currently reading shelve, and lastly “I’m planning to read “The Prophet”‘ that is in the to-read shelve. There are always conditions with those shelves. For the read shelve a reader is really happy to discuss the book and to show is joy or disappointment with it and could talk on and on about it, and maybe put it back on the to-read again shelve because it is too good. But for the other two shelves there is a huge problem which is called ‘Spoilers’. You see a reader (most readers) don’t want you to tell them what is the book about and spoil them for it, you are taking the joy away from reading. Why should they read the book when all you did is tell the whole story for them?

Here I come back to the con of being both a bookworm and an English Literature student. As a Literature student obviously you study literature with different historical and cultural backgrounds, you discuss the story/poem and refer it to whatever you feel like until like that the discussion is directly or indirectly linked to a classical book that you put on your to-read shelve, they talk about it while you burn inside because they are spoiling everything for you and you die to pieces a little by little, and if you are really lucky they would be spoiling only parts of it. That actually happened to me last course the doctor was just about to talk about “Wuthering Heights” as a point of reference and since it’s in my to read shelve (still is) I was just about to die until I got the courage to say “Don’t spoil it please I’m planning to read it” thankfully he was understanding and sweet he didn’t proceed with it. My friend on the other hand was planning to read “Jane Eyre” and in one of the lectures her doctor just spilled everything about the book and spoiled it for her, after class she was complaining about how the Dr ruined it for her.

That happens every now and then but here is this thing, we do actually study some classics and most of the time its the very short versions of it or maybe just the movie depending on the doctor’s way of teaching. Of course some of the greatest books out there are being taught to us and some yes do exist in the t0-read shelves. As a modern fiction lover I tend to postpone the classics till later but that is not going to work anymore, not since I started getting deeper in my major. What brought this up? Yesterday I was informed that I will be studying “Pride and Prejudice” by Jane Austen. I’ve been wanting to read that book since a long time ago, I can’t remember really and I also have been fascinated by the word “Prejudice” from the tittle yet I didn’t know the meaning of it and every time I look it up in the dictionary I would be forgetting it’s meaning a nano-second later. Which is somehow normal with me and new words until they click in my mind and I actually understand them for whatever way I used. So in order to at last make the click of the word I checked it one more last time and I said “Prejudice is bias with a bow-tie” and it clicked (what I meant is that Prejudice is synonym of bias but it looks like a fancier of a word). Anyway after I knew the meaning I figured I would read it soon, but the soon was not adjusted into how soon. Until yesterday of course and since I was getting a heads up on the situation I might as well start reading it at a fast speed(hopefully) only a problem, I’m reading another book right now, “The Lucky One” by Nicholas Sparks (which is an upcoming movie) and I’m reading in some what of a rush (check my goodreads).

I got a heads up this time except the next time I would never know what next book will be spoiled for me.

-Esperanza Writes